Who Are You Living For?
- Angela Cangialosi
- Nov 9, 2017
- 2 min read
I started my Youtube channel in high school, almost five years ago I’m pretty sure. Since beginning my life coach program, I picked it back up but it hasn’t been the same. Like I talked about in my last post, I’ve had a lot of doubts about whether I should be on Youtube, if it's worth it or not. I thought about the difference between who I was when I first created my channel and who I am now.
In high school, sure, I cared about what people might think about my videos but I posted them anyway. They were as long as I wanted them to be and in no way scripted. I made them for myself with no clue about SEO, picking catchy titles, making enticing thumbnails. It was all me, with a very small side of “I hope people like this”. I had a ball editing my videos, laughed a ton and it didn’t really matter how many likes or comments I got, numbers weren’t a priority.
What changes when you try to make money out of what you simply have fun doing?
Personally, it kills my creativity. It takes all enjoyment out of it and it makes the whole process internal. I just end up in a constant state of overthinking and research to the point where I never actually take action. It’s turned into this need for reassurance. Every like and comment keeps me going. It strips me of any power. What would I do if I didn’t get reassurance from anyone in any area of my life? Just quit doing anything? Nope. Turns out I continue on with life. So, why should I quit putting out content just because it might not be the kind of stuff that makes it “big”?
I have an inkling that many of us go through the same mental process. If our hopes and expectations aren’t met; in the form of likes, compliments, praise- we get discouraged and shut down or lose consistency at the very least. But, in my head I know nothing would ever get accomplished with that mindset.
I just think about why I’m doing it. Why I post the videos and write these blog posts. I’ve come to realize that my biggest priority is to show up authentically in my life so others can do the same in theirs.
Considering why and for whom you’re living might allow for some clarity.
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